“A person who never made a mistake never tried anything new. ” – Albert Einstein
Sunday night on the month of December is a fabulous time to reflect on career and life. Reflection is a great way to understand the past, present and future. On this chilly evening, I bring to you my favorite quotes for the month of December and hope it empowers or set you thinking for what you can achieve in 2014.
"A true friend sees the good in everything, and brings out the best in the worst of things." - Sasha Azevedo
The first time I was nominated for The Most Versatile Blogger Award was on October 31st, of this year 2013 and was just nominated again yesterday by another fellow blogger that goes by amintiridinbucatarie at amintiridinbucatarie.wordpress.com.
Thank you again to my fellow readers and bloggers.
I answered all the many questions about myself and nominated my choices for which blogs I felt worthy of the same award.
I still have to accept and nominate for The Most Influential Blogger Award, and I forget who nominated me! Sorry folks, but I have been really busy leading the most tumultuous part in my life in history. That award means the most to me because it means that my words meant something to a lot of people and not only got them thinking but acting in new ways.
All of these awards and the 73 countries who have been reading this site on a monthly basis-didn’t know these things were going on, but they are. The readership doubled on this site in the last two months. It makes me elated that I managed to do it all.
I met a nice lady who was a nurse with her two children at Arby’s this week. We had so much in common and she said two words to me- very simply said “Stay Sweet”. I am so happy that people still perceive me to be “sweet’. I didn’t let all the apathy and callousness regarding my mother and I jade me and I will always think that most people are inherently good-if you are good to them.
It is eight months to date since I was callously evicted from my mother’s place (that I chose to live in 13 years ago helping my parents pay their house payment while I had a place to live in the massive duplex they owned in Garden Grove, CA. That ended in April 2013 when my brother-in-law Mike Bunker-made power of attorney by my dad-which was a royal mistake-and my mother-evicted me. I have been in and out of two star hotels, trying to afford expensive southern CA rent, which is impossible with no room mate.
I am eligible for HUD housing but women with kids get priority and I am treated as though I am not alive. (I am not done fighting on this matter to change this fact. I wish I didn’t have to be the only one fighting, since it affects more than myself.)
Of course I am alive and searching day by day to find a family to live with and cook for the family in exchange for a nice, clean safe non-smoking environment I can live in and relax and take care of myself. It will be easy to get ahead when I don’t feel like I have a shot gun to my head rushing around or else I will be out on the street when the money runs out for the hotel I am writing this from!
It is a hell of a way to live and if you would have told me that I would be doing this, when my family once had morals, values and stuck together, I would have never believed you. I am in charge of me-and that is it. That is what I learned out of all this. I am not sure why I have to go through so much and endure so many tragic things in my life, but I will be glad when I have a place to call home. I am working to make more and more money but it is going out the door as fast as I get it.
I have been looking on Craig’s List for Orange County but everybody in CA is greedy and wants $800 to rent a lousy bedroom. In New Mexico you can get a two bedroom two bathroom place for $700 with full amenities! about less than half of what it takes here in Expensive-Ville.
I met a really nice lady today and helped her grand daughter who has ALS find resources and will be posting the story about her and the way to help the family pay for all the medical care for her. I met her at Staples where I do work all the time and noticed her having printed signs with a pretty little girl on them and wanted to know more. The story about her will air as soon as I can get a photo of her. I also emailed the director of ALSA, an association that helps people with ALS and found a clinic for her and her family. All these things are possible because I could and I simply did. I wish more people had that kind of attitude.
My nanny used to say, “What goes around comes around”, and I hope that some of the great things I did in my life, that I never got paid for or recognition for, come back my way and someone helps me now.
Whatever God you pray to, Christian, Native American Indian, Jewish or Buddhist-pray that I find a place to stay soon and better yet, if you know someone who either has a room I can stay in-in exchange for helping with cooking and housework and helping with the kids-let me know.
If you know a person who has been looking for someone who is stable mentally and financially-and who is a good cook and has a good sense of humor and a positive attitude, let me know. I want to sign a year or better yet more-lease. 3 vaults of my life that I pay on each month have been in storage since April and I would rather sit at my desk again in my office chair, cook in my gourmet kitchen and read the many books in my library. Make it so God and let this struggle end
Christmas is only weeks away and here I am watching cable TV-first I have seen of it in months, in a hotel I call home with no kitchen but a microwave, fridge, freezer in safe area. It is $70 a day that could go towards a month in a room in a house.There are cheaper two star hotels that are highly unsafe and dangerous and I have stayed in them but my blood pressure was elevated and I never got any sleep and when I heard a guy beating up a woman in the room next to me, I swore to God I would do everything humanly possible to find the best deal and find a way to pay the higher price in better hotels.
I didn’t know when I wrote about The Most Versatile Blogger Award this would come out but it did. Probably for the best.
I know I am special because have been going through all this without mentioning it to the world. I do know in one heart beat I help others and get such a great joy and high out of it.
Imagine what kind of things I could write and do if only I had one stable nice place to live with no worry?
The possibilities are endless!
Paulette Le Pore Motzko
Email me any leads or connections you may have at Paulette_Motzko@yahoo.com.
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I wasn’t born to live in a hotel and need a home to live in because I am disabled with epilepsy. I also am too nice and too kind to have the guy I was living with hit me, but he did…which is what brought me to this hotel.
I have just kept myself absorbed in my work, in what matters and relentlessly contacting congress people and talking face to face with every friend I know on Facebook and elsewhere-and realizing that people, when you go through hell-with totally flaberghast you!
One friend, that I thought was a friend at least-heard about me in the hotel, the guy hitting me etc., things that would have at least got an “Are You OK?” …or something showing that you have a heart and soul and a pulse-got nothing. Just talk of sugar cookies and setting her opulent table with gold baubles on hanging everywhere. I am not jealous because I have all that “stuff” in storage waiting to come out and be united with me.
I call myself DISPLACED AND NOT REALLY HOMELESS. I CAN PAY $500 TOWARDS RENT COME JANUARY FOR ANONE WHO LIVES IN ORANGE COUNTY AND I CAN FURNISH THE PLACE FOR A CLEAN, MATURE, SENSIBLE PERSON WHO IS STABLE MENTALLY AND FINANCIALLY-WHO DRIVES AND DOESN’T SMOKE.
Since I am in a position where I have the whole world, or at least 73 countries reading what I write on a monthly basis, I am using this podium to get ACTION-for me.
My future means a lot to me and I tried to do everything right.
I am the only kid who got any college degree, let alone two.
I know that my best years are still yet to come and once I am settled in a place I can move onward and put the ugly past behind me. That is what I need and crave is closure.
Does anyone know a social worker in Orange County who can pull some strings for me and get me the benefits and help me live to the fullest of my ability?
Any information would be beneficial here and it is all appreciated.
If you read to the end of this sentence, you are better more precious to me than gold-but are like platinum because you care about what I write and you care about allowing the lady who writes the words you read to live the best life she is able within her abilities.
That is really all you can do in life.
All I want for Christmas is the hope of a nice place to live and know I can build my future and to know I can see my mother Ramona any time I want for as long as I live. She is the only living family member that is worth anything and without her, I wouldn’t be the person I am with the talents I possess reaching out to the people I do.
For my mother to see-Ramona Lea Le Pore
Thanks Mom. I PICTURE YOU AND THINK OF YOU OFTEN AND THERE ISN’T A DAY THAT GOES BY THAT I DON’T PRAY YOU ARE ALRIGHT AND THAT YOU THRIVE IN SPITE OF THE HATRED MY SISTER BRENDA SPEWS MY WAY BY NOT LETTING YOU KNOW I CALLED or GIVING YOU THE PHONE.
We are close and will always remain close and nobody will ever stop that. I will always keep my word and make you proud and the philosophy you gave me about “putting my mind to do anything I wanted has paid off”. People read what I write all over the world now on 9 web sites and I constantly mentor young kids I run into. It is all because of you mom and your kind and gentle spirit.
I got you something for Christmas-here and you will love it. I will make it to see you and sorry I couldn’t see you for Thanksgiving, but that was due to Bunker who erases every call I put in. He is a walking ball of hatred and a horrible human being who I hope realizes the damage he did to you and I and pays for it the rest of this life-if even in his conscious.
“You have been on my mind and in my heart all year long. I couldn’t see you or talk to you because I was struggling in some of the most dangerous cities nearly on the street at times. Just like the Kelly Clarkson song “What doesn’t kill ya makes you stronger”, well it did and I went through the ring of fire looking back on the rubble behind me. I was strong to begin with though.”
I have friends who are going to help me get to Marino Valley where you live and even though Bunker and Brenda ban all the calls that come through and pretend I don’t exist-I do and have never forgotten about you one bit. It has been one year since I have seen or talked to my mom-and I used to see her 3 times a day, making meals for her-because I could and I wanted to.
Paulette Le Pore Motzko
I require 8 or more hours sleep and need a private room I can take care of myself in-my medicine that keeps me alive and writing this.
Also, if any of you know any political figures I can contact-let me know or anyone who would change my situation if they only knew. I call people like that Change Catalysts. I am one of those and am hoping I can find one for me now.
Paulette Le Pore Motzko
December 8th, 2013
“Lead from the back and let others believe they are in front” – Nelson Mandela